
Can you believe there is a word for this? Fear of BAKING! Yup, I think I have this. I fear because I fail at it miserably. Yesterday, ENK called from Costco, "Sue, do we need bread?" I told him no because I was going to bake my own bread for my family. So when evening approached, I took out my mixing bowls and started this daunting commitment. I failed this miserably last night at 11 p.m. when everyone was sound asleep. The bread didn't rise.
Why do I fear baking? I cook up a storm all the time in the kitchen. You let me taste something and my mind goes into this crazy whirl thinking about the ingredients and how you can make it... but when it comes to baking, it's very different.
I use to think I didn't want to bake was because of all the butter that goes in....But now, I think it's more than the butter. I think I don't have the patience and basic bath skills... No, I can't say that! It's the exact science of baking that throws me off!
Another fear of baking? YEAST! have a fear of baking with yeast.
Last night's failed attempt in making bread? Yeast. I have all these questions about yeast: what if the water is too hot? too cold? What if it doesn't rise?What if I use the wrong kind of yeast? There are cake yeast, active dry yeast, instant dry yeast! I read that when a bread do not rise, it's always the YEAST.
I made bread before in a bread machine many times... I didn't particularly enjoy it then...When the machine burned, I didn't bother getting another one and didn't bake bread again. But I do dream about giving away my delicious loaf of bread to friends...I bought a bucket of tofu yesterday and shared with some dear friends whom I love... It made me happy to give them something so fresh and delicious... Oh how I wish I can bake and give it away to friends as gifts... I should stick with just tofu?
I need to start today. I can't be stopping by Great Harvest Bakery every week and spend $10 plus dollars on bread!!! I need to overcome this obsticle and make my own whole wheat bread. Initially, I was going to invest in a mill and an expensive bread machine and so forth... Nope. I'm going to do with what I have, the old fashion way. I just need to do it.
I did feel ashamed this morning of not producing bread for my family. I promised them bread and I did not deliver. I made them waffles. That was good...
Wish me luck my dear three readers... I am going to bake today. again.